not the wrong person

Sometimes it is hard when the person that you are supposed to be in love with is not the person that you truly love. Most of the time love hurts. But for those who are blind enough, or delusional enough to believe that love conquers all, they would still fall in love. Or be in love, although it hurts. And there are some people who just don’t care since they could not help it anymore but be in love with the wrong person. Does the fact that you should not be in love with the person, makes him the wrong person? When your head keeps on telling you that “hey, he’s not the one girl. What is wrong with you? There’s this one smart and really sweet guy who loves you but you choose to give your heart to someone else”.

Maybe.

But I think you do not choose to give out your heart. Your heart would kindly do the choosing for you.

And you cannot help it but to fall for the trap of self-denial (because you keep on telling yourself, you SHOULD NOT be in love with this person, thus you ARE NOT in love with the person). But eventually, you would realize that this so called love, is not merely a short infatuation, but a serious and very dangerous game that you are playing.

A game because it is still a cat-and-mouse chase (for you have not confessed anything thus you keep on chasing each other to gain the ultimate kill). Yet a dangerous one for as you spend your precious time and perhaps money, you may develop a sense of dependence onto this I’m-not-supposed-to-be-in-love-with-you person and thus you may feel that you beginning to get emotionally attached to this person. At this point, you no longer think that you like the person, instead you are beginning to think that you need this person in your life.

I’m afraid to say that at this point, you may also feel that you would dare to loose and gamble everything just to spend a single minute longer with this 'wrong' person.

..sigh~

Some post thoughts:
my friend said this to me. "Sometimes we make mistakes although we thought that we are doing the right thing. And sometimes we tend to do the right thing although we believe that it is wrong and keep punishing ourselves for it. there is no such thing as the right person or the wrong person. the right person for me might not be the perfect match for you. We cannot run away from the self denial because it is there. So you can't push yourself to do something that you do not like "

Follow your heart anyone?